(Sept. 5, 2022 ● Oslin Pierrette)
(Just saying, people who I’ve shown this before. I’ll tell them. I’m honestly not even trying to come off pretentious. This is just how I feel)
A while back a friend asked me why I was talking to the people I was talking to. Honestly I was doing an uncharacteristic thing, talking to multiple women. Which isn’t something I typically do. I just can’t juggle that. I’ll start to feel like Flavor Flav(I do not do the bachelor, seems bland). Was never good at that multiple dating concept. I’m more of an exclusively intimate person. That’s just how I operate. But my friend asked why I was talking to them, and honestly it was because I was bored. Then I was disappointed in myself because I’m not trying to mix up other people’s heads just out of boredom. None of those connecitions were that deep, so I just let it go. Mainly because I very much know what kind of women I’m currently into. I know my type of person. It’s in this written piece on top.
Mainly what I’m trying to say, is how I found and crafted the standard of women I know I want. Is really intensely and deeply getting to know my identity. I spent so much time with myself. Know what I love out of life, my passions, and who I am. Learn the languages I speak and express. Which then easily lets me find partners who speak those same and similar languages. Like I’m very confident the women I commit with will be an easily meshing, fruitful, and beautiful relationship. That’s also because vulnerability and communication at a high level(I’ll accept a decent-good amount) is a standard. No unhealthy attachments. Bonded by nothing except the fact we want to be here together, we’ll just seem as one…(Maybe I’ll drop a second writing piece I remember writing years ago to further clarify my point)
But yeah, find your person, to help you find your person. Also I feel good enough for my dream situation. You somewhat have to build that in you. To feel good enough for what you want, or you’ll just keep doubting yourself out of your dreams.